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This has been my only escape basically.
My last escape was taken from me, so here I am.

I really can’t stand the nights that I can’t fall asleep because I think about that one thing I had in my life that I let slip away. My music. The one thing that helped me through it all. My lyrics. The words that actually spoke about me. The lyrics that could get me through the day knowing I was able to let out myself into poetry, into music. The fact that I even remotely thought of giving that all up because of some people who broke me down to think I wasn’t good enough for them. 
I’m so much more than that. I just can’t bring myself to put myself into another situation where I’ll be right back to where I am now, again. 
Crying every other fucking night because of how much I failed at my first attempt, and how I shouldn’t go back to avoid the pain. 
I can’t think like that.


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seriously, this homework work and school thing is killing me, because they all run into each other all the fucking time. 

The last time I have ever felt so close to someone so fast was when I met Mal. It was great knowing I could have such a great friendship with her so quickly and we still have it.
Now I found Brian, growing so close just as fast, but our friendship is a romantic one, Brian and I. It’s a great thing knowing there are still good people in the world, and I’ve surrounded myself with the very best.
Brian, you’re my boyfriend and I think you’re the best yet. It’s been so amazing spending so much time with you, getting to know you, being your partner. I love it.

Mal, you mean the absolute world to me. We have had mostly just ups, and recently some downs, but honestly with all that aside I still love you to death. Remember, even if it’s not a real song anymore, our quote still has such a significant meaning to me. Our friendship will always last no matter what happens. “If you die, I’ll meet you there. ” Literal or not, it defines us as the friends we are. I love you.

Taylor, we haven’t talked much lately, but when we do, and when we see each other, its nothing but good vibes and fun times. I can’t imagine a life without putting up with with your attitude. We are a great example of an everlasting friendship. Almost 5 years and still going strong.

Keely, I can’t imagine how my life would have been if I didn’t meet you. Really, you’ve made such an impact in my life and who I am today. Honestly you are my older sister and always will be. Whether you live in Michigan or right next to me, you’ll always have a place in my heart.

Anna, you’re a sassy bitch and I love you. We bond so well and I’m glad we met. We seem to kind of bounce off each other. Our differences are the things that probably make us get along so well. We have been there for each other since we met and you’re a real (dare I say it) homie. Hah, can’t believe I said homie. What did you do to me? 💁

Okay I’ll stop with my heart pouring about friends and shit. There really are so many people to talk about who have greatly impacted my life, I’m just too tired to continue. :p

I feel like I haven’t posted in a while.
I guess that’s a good thing, because I’m not super sad anymore. 
I’m just stoked to play with Such Gold on the 14th!

I just wanna know you better.

Why do I hang out with attractive people?
Why can’t everyone just be bisexual/pansexual/everything sexual?

I’m not entirely sure on how I am going to make it.

Sitting at Laney’s house, she’s passed out, and I’m just, well, obviously on tumblr. I am just looking through old messages from when I used to talk to awesome people. Really though, what happened to all the friendships I used to have on here? They all just kind of disappeared. 

It makes me miss some of the people I used to think I was so close to, and some of the people I wish I still knew. Don’t get me wrong, I love the people I know now, I just wasn’t expecting to have such a dramatic change in the people that I became close to.

I kind of miss the old days, but I’m enjoying the days where I have it the way I do now. I’m just in one of those weird states of mind again. Woo hoo. It seems to be a reoccurring thing that happens most nights, weather it’s on tumblr, or just in my room by myself, like in tear or what. 
I hate when people in real life actually ask me about whatever posts I make on here, and why I’m so upset on here and not showing it in person, or what’s wrong even. Well, let me explain:

I don’t show much emotion unless it is happiness or anger. Thats about it. When I type away on my very own, personal blog, I get to express my other feelings, like I get to do in my songs. I’m generally a fairly happy person on the outside, usually positive. Well, what’s underneath si what counts. It’s my own blog anyways. Shmust4ng is the thing that’s here to help distract me, or help me vent things I don’t want to say out loud to people. It’s where I go to feel better about myself because I have a place to put these feelings.

I’m just a kid with a song in my head. Broadway Calls just couldn’t say it any better. Really, That song in my head. weather it’s a happ song that gets me through the day, or it’s a sad song that I dwell on and ruin my mood over. I’m really just a kid with a song in my head to create a better perspective on how I feel. Right now, I don’t have a song. That’s why I’m so confused. I just don’t understand all the way, but it happens. We can’t always get what we want.

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